Believing like a child

I might not be the best person to tell you about God.  I don't always do the right thing, even though I really try my best to do it.  I can't believe that some of the most precious people in my life will not go to heaven, because of the fact that their believes are different than mine.  I also don't try to convert these people to my religion, which is frowned upon by many people in my life.  I see the more loving side of God, rather than His righteous side, which I hope He can forgive me for, because I don't know how else to believe.  I don't talk about God as much as I should, as I try to show God to people through loving them and not judging them, rather than giving testimonies.  So, basically I am not the model Christian.  There is so much I need to work on and change in my life. 

What I do know is this:

• Jesus is my King and through Him is the only way I can understand God completely
• Believing like a child helps me to get through life.  I do not understand everything.  So many things in life is unfair and makes me sad.  I have so many friends who I love dearly that doesn't believe the same as me and sometimes this confuse me.  But the Bible told me to believe like a child and that's what I am doing.  God knows best.  I don't have to solve life's problems.  I will just keep on trying to show people His love and believe in my God who takes care of me everyday...